Lovers for everything

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I’m so cold

my fingers are chaffed to crepe

and I think of you

curling my bunions and split ends into smiles

you who thought my high forehead, regal and grand

you who turned my flaws into delights

misting unflattering mirrors to better light

I think of you and how

I felt when you regarded me

with the bright eyes of love

that dimmed and winked out

gradually until even the blind could see

you no longer held me in your esteem

that’s when I told myself

don’t depend upon the love of others

to hold you to the light

do not need the touch of someone who desires you

to be all right

but who am I kidding?

even the flower

the feral cat and mocking bird

the sky, the earth and all between

even the damn puddles and muddy stream

needs someone to say to them

you look lovely still

you make my heart skip a beat

even if it is a bush or bramble hedge

maybe out there in the wild there are

lovers for everything

whilst I

try to find in not being loved

the companionship of silence

but it is not

no it is not

good enough

for quiet endurance does not have

your caring arms

holding me from the world

turning me from lead to precious metal

nor the ardor of your eyes

reminding me to shine

when I think I cannot

no

that hope is lost

the day you turned your head

no longer delighted by my flaws

I am just ordinary now

and a bunion is a bunion

sticking out of my shoe

at rude angle

as sorry as any malformed bone could be

to lose such fantasy

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33 thoughts on “Lovers for everything

  1. Even if you love yourself above and beyond, the need of hearing and feeling someone other than yourself love and accept you for all that you are is still great. But it’s best to remember that everyone see’s you differently and falls in love with different aspects of you that makes you unique even when you feel so ordinary. I love this.

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    1. That is so true. I agree and that’s very insightful, you’re right, people like different parts of you there is no one universal like, I actually had never thought of it quite like that thank you for that, I may write more on that subject thanks to you!

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    1. My friend it is so good to see you again – happy new year to you I hope you are okay I thought of you often whilst you were gone (and I also some of the time) lovely to see your face again here and on FB. BIG HUG and thank you for reading me xo

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      1. A happy new year to you too Candice, it’s so good to be back and thank you for the hug. Sadly, my Father passed away at the end of November but my Mum is now doing well. Brian is still having treatment but it all looks very promising. 2016 was a tough year, but so far 2017 has kicked off to a good start, fingers crossed that it carries on that way xx

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      1. THANK YOU!!!!
        I was so bummed when I realized I was missing so many of your posts! Because of this stupid app. It is so easy to use on my ipad but i realized I missed over 1/2 of your posts. I really enjoyed reading all of the ones I had missed.

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