This is all I want
I want to separate you from the lie
divide the rotten from edible
keep the true half
this is all I want
I want to deny and I want to rewind
to the place you first made
me feel
there underneath the lemon tree
with tin ornaments chiming
like informal instruments of hurt
waiting for master
there as sun dappled river water
turning brown to copper
you crushed my fingers together
knotted my heart within yours
there in that sharp aspect of honesty
dissolving fear
you could not have lied then
looking at me with your onyx eyes
hiding nothing
there when I opened my chest
everything waiting within the wings
poured into you
we mixed ourselves in each other
blood, tar, tears, bruises and wishes
changing color, swapping features
indistinguishable in rebirth
I could no more tell you where I ended
and you began to exist
twins of sorrow, born to feel everything
finding each other the only salve
when it got too much you would
grip me tightly and we’d see
the reflection of us in the water
shaking with light and misunderstanding
as if time could not contain
all that we felt
this is all I want
for you to say you were not
a figment of my imagination
a missing part of stepping stone
to the other side where you stood
waving and urging me on
cross over
here I am
I promise
I will never leave
I hear your voice low and
reedy, carried by wind down stream
my socks are wet
my hands tremble
I reach for you
grabbing chalky air, dry with claim
where you were once whole and certain
now dark water is still as glass
I see myself reflected alone
emptied of promise
There’s something about the line ‘my socks are wet’ that encapsulates the utter misery of loss.
Powerful and painful. I felt the loss❤
This really hit home.
Can identity
‘this is all I want
for you to say you were not
a figment of my imagination’
That’s exactly it
Jeez, you’ve done it again… 😉
What an amazing journey into the pain of love and giving away parts of oneself for another. Beautiful!! ❤
We can get matching tattoos and be sailors together 😉
Thank you so much! I appreciate you!
Thank you so much dearest moonlight I really appreciate you reading and commenting xo
🙂 xo (thank you)
You are like an expert fisher, you know what to hook and draw out and examine xo (thank you sweet Jane)
You know me and pain 😉 (thank you E)
Some lines say so much more than the sum of their words 🙂
Thank you dear one, you always give me hope and most of all inspiration because of your own wordsmithery (sp)
Painfully beautiful.
I read your poetry with awe, knowing I’d never be able to write like that. You have an insight that goes very deep and you’re not afraid to dredge right down where the mud is.
Geez! That hit the spot. I sometimes wish I could just scoop you up and take you to buy some new Dunlops.
Pain understands this poem.
These lines spoke:
where you were once whole and certain
now dark water is still as glass
I see myself reflected alone
emptied of promise
Emptiness feels, it cries, you know how to speak to us.
Powerful work.
Sweet Asmov of the stars, thank you darling big kiss xo
Let’s DO IT! 😉
That’s Nike 😉
Awww…love you sis so much! ❤ 🙂