Darkling
I write thee in remembrance
for fourscore years you kept me prisoner
and I held you in esteem
(purge the love / hate the sin)
like any love affair we only broke up
when I wiped the vaseline from the lens
distortion revealing her bent
a thin and lost emotion
buried like an apricot stone
in the pit of my stomach
where a wan tree grew
and nourished me toward
the sky
sometimes I am reminded
of the tight hold you had
like reigns on a horse will
cause them to drive ever forward
even when removed
Now how about a bowl of Mint Chocolate Chip Ice cream….my treat… 🙂
“Cause them to drive ever forward, even when reigns removed” wonderful analogy of how illness and recovery are so connected. And the ” love affair” wonderfully describes how an illness can come to feel so normal. Thank you for sharing your gifts!
Thank you so much! You’re so right, it can feel so normal – lots of love to you my friend
ha ha ha! I eat quite normally now except I’m allergic to ice-cream! (but if I had a bowl it would be mint chocolate chip, however did you know?!!!)
And when irrational begins to feel normal that is where the danger begins!
Mmm not sure it’s that. .. though complex it’s just not irrational per say
We shall call it a wierd kismet my friend… 😜🍧
Pizza it is then instead…!
This one elicits hugs ((( ❤ )))
“A thin and lost emotion
buried like an apricot stone
in the pit of my stomach
where a wan tree grew
and nourished me toward
the sky”
Your writing is just so good. And this is brilliant because so many people still don’t understand eating disorders. They really do think it’s a question of “getting over it and polishing off a plate of pasta ffs!”
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Candice Louisa Daquin/The Feathered Sleep
This is the correct weblog for anyone who hopes to be made aware of this topic. You know so much its nearly tough to argue on hand (not that I really would want…HaHa). You definitely put a fresh spin using a topic thats been revealed for many years. Wonderful stuff, just excellent!
You honor me. Thank you so much for your lovely and much appreciated words. I do so much better knowing I’m on the right track. Thank you !
My friend I was away from the internet but I’m back now and shall be writing you. Sorry for my absence. I appreciate you writing me so much. Please know that.
your words are miraculous. i am in recovery, and i am so grateful to have found your blog. though you may never see this comment, as you probably get so many every waking moment, just know that i am sending you all the hope and courage in the world. thank you for fighting and living and existing and shining. 💙💙💙💙
Dearest Birdy. ( The film Birdy is one of my favorites, have you seen it?). Thank you so very much for your support and encouragement 💓 I am proud of you for your recovery. You can do this. It may at times seem Impossible but you can. If ever you want to talk please email me at Candicelouisa@rocketmail.com we gain strength by supporting each other. You are not alone.
your words and support are felt within me so wholly and so beautifully. thank you, dear. you are so right. we help others by fighting for our own light, and therefore giving unconscious permission for others to rise from their own ashes, too. thank you thank you. 💙💙 we are never alone. and i would love to email you. thank you endlessly.
No thanks needed, we are flying the same stream and it is better with the company and compassion of a friend. 💓💓💓
so so much better indeed. 💙💙