Ode to a former eating disorder

4aaa633391cd85cb22d2ded208bc71dcDarkling

I write thee in remembrance

for fourscore years you kept me prisoner

and I held you in esteem

(purge the love / hate the sin)

like any love affair we only broke up

when I wiped the vaseline from the lens

distortion revealing her bent

a thin and lost emotion

buried like an apricot stone

in the pit of my stomach

where a wan tree grew

and nourished me toward

the sky

sometimes I am reminded

of the tight hold you had

like reigns on a horse will

cause them to drive ever forward

even when removed

 

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13 thoughts on “Ode to a former eating disorder

  1. “Cause them to drive ever forward, even when reigns removed” wonderful analogy of how illness and recovery are so connected. And the ” love affair” wonderfully describes how an illness can come to feel so normal. Thank you for sharing your gifts!

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  2. “A thin and lost emotion

    buried like an apricot stone

    in the pit of my stomach

    where a wan tree grew

    and nourished me toward

    the sky”
    Your writing is just so good. And this is brilliant because so many people still don’t understand eating disorders. They really do think it’s a question of “getting over it and polishing off a plate of pasta ffs!”

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  3. This is the correct weblog for anyone who hopes to be made aware of this topic. You know so much its nearly tough to argue on hand (not that I really would want…HaHa). You definitely put a fresh spin using a topic thats been revealed for many years. Wonderful stuff, just excellent!

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