Full tilt


There was a woman who had five children

a thriving career and a clean house

who could cook for fifty guests and still

find time to drink wine by the pool

she earned her life as fishermen

pull their catch from the ocean

twitching in multicolored lust

reluctant to be garnered

it took a great effort to be everything to everyone

and so she stayed until disease grew like a weed

within her chest and despite fighting

she lost

I wondered afterward

standing by her memory like a mirror

etching granite thought

why life was so unyielding in its give and take?

like a cruelty

reducing effort to ash and rewarding

the indolent cat who purchases laziness

I could never have been

as full as her nor fought as long

I did not have her endurance, strength and will

to conquer life

flaming from her nostrils and burning desire

and yet it is she who dies

prematurely, leaving behind grieving hearts

when I would hardly stir a sail with my absence

in the grand scheme of a world that is

not grand but fond of scheming

something doesn’t seem right about the way things play out

randomness cannot answer injustice or

why some are able to live with so much

while others struggle to wake up and touch the floor of day

perhaps in that singularity and opposition

lies the answer

she lived more in fifty years than I

ever could, reaching vainly

even if I tried every day like an acrobat

desirous to spin above the void

which I do, falling short

not the girl who slurps ice cream to its stick with lavish noise

any wonder why then, some

consider Gods mighty chess players

merciless in their sport

of our small and absurd selves

floundering beneath with taut marionette strings

blown by a strange wind

percolating from unseen place

52 thoughts on “Full tilt

  1. This makes me sad for so many reasons. Your absence would absolutely “stir a sail. . .in the grand scheme” of my world. The irony of course is that you always feel like a shooting star to me and I always feel so embedded in the boring and mundane.

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    1. This is why you are my emotional doupleganger because you ‘get’ the sadness within this where others may not. I know you ‘get’ me in a way I hope you know I ‘get’ you and as such, we are less lonely for it. You are so far from being boring and mudane it makes me crack up and laugh like a mad hen.

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      1. I am deeply grateful that Olde Punk told me to check you out and that you were willing to make room in your life for me. You are a shining star and not just because you write poetry that makes my brain explode. You do make me feel less lonely and very few people are able to do that. ❤

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      2. Wow I feel very emotional in a good way reading this. I feel at a loss for words also which is also a good thing. To think anything I write could make a person whom I think very talented and creative, feel this way, is a wonderful feeling of accomplishment which I rarely get! As with you I do not feel less lonely in a crowd or with most people – I have often wondered why. Could it be sympatico? If so, then I must say I share this sentiment. (thank you thank you so much)

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      1. ha ha ha! That’s a funny image. You can talk! Although I know you lay down the boogie that’s your coping mechanism, mine used to be red wine (looks around for new coping mechanism and locates turn-table)

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  2. One of the great questions that has no answer. Don’t look for one. The only people who have an explanation will contradict themselves—God doesn’t intervene in our affairs not even to stop genocides/God is goodness and mercy—just ask nicely and you will receive.

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    1. Ha! Well said my friend! I liked this answer. I must agree – those who think they know may contradict themselves (I have often felt this, you put it into words) I see the irony flirting at the corners of your response 😉


      1. The one with the brain tumor – she’s been through hell – but she’s a fighter and very strong and she’s definitely a whole heck of a lot better – doing great actually I’m so proud of her – I go with her so that there is always someone else to witness what the docs say and do just incase.

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  3. Oh wow! This is so beautiful and so powerful and deep! I loved every single line!! So good! I also wonder sometimes why the good people go and others stay here, maybe it has something to do with the balance, or something else. I guess people will never know..

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