Wounded bird

IMG_0920I tried with you, I really tried, and then I let you go

you flew out of the window even as it was closed

panes securely fastened

latch tight and unyielding

because you had never quite been


it was you see, a failure of mine

to find you flailing beneath yourself

with a few choice words you could

nourish from my adoration and mend

your rapid fast airy heart

containing only string

for what you need and not

enough for love


I was a clay maker

thinking fitfully if I put enough into shape

if my structure were sound and whole

if I poured water to prevent cracks

moistened over the thin spots

despite not being what you wanted

despite being a girl

despite having tired fingers

you would relent and

let me hold you in my lap

as crickets drowned the rush of air in hot melt


you were after all

used to mistreatment, I reasoned

surely a bird who had been injured

would long for peace?

the passion of sincerity

a terribly naive hope

when we all know

those who like the wound

will return to their abuse

not the arms of one who

is boring in her devotion

I never thought I should become

that very tedium

you strike against with mended wing

the one you answer last

when bored or idle

not they, who burn in your throat

wakefully lusting

whilst I feel already the part

of spinster and milliner

hemming your spare parts


it would be easy for me to

dress like you, smell like you

gather a flock of admirers

play midnight dalliances with

camera and music

cue ..  lights ..  pose ..  fizz

and now that you have shown

your true feathers

I see a little of why you prefer this slovenly approach

it suits your downturn

your denial of yourself

and I feel embarrassed that you had me so hot

as you pulsed beneath my wonder

with practiced charm

so used to hearing the false words you live for


I do not own

a penis

though my strength and my passion

would have surprised you

I do not possess

a penchant for games or

the worship sufficient to be

your follower

your worshiper

so little bird

when you escape

please do not

return when the skies fall

and he stops calling

or insults your honor

because my fingers are burnt dry

from believing myself

needy of you



(Daquin, 1997.)

20 thoughts on “Wounded bird

  1. I think we all (or many) have experienced an unrequited, unreturned crush or love. Beautifully written as always my friend.ღ

  2. I am in awe of this gorgeous crafting of words. Wow. It is simply stunning! Thank you for sharing. 😃

  3. Powerful poem, this one! And as another commented, I think we can all relate. Striking imagery once again, Candice.
    Hope you’re continuing to feel better, my friend. 💕

  4. Ooh, ouch! This reminds me of a scorpion’s curled up tail that stings the hand of he/she who holds even if it is picked up and only held ever so gingerly. A “bird” that would treat anyone this way and then fly away from one so dear indeed deserves such a sting as it flies away. Two of the most bitter experiences in life are betrayal and being treated in the manner of which you speak here. So well penned as usual!!! 🙂 ❤

  5. We have all tried to save if we are healers, but only those who are ready can truly be saved. And each time we try, we both lose and gain a bit I think. But I for one will keep trying–honestly, I don’t think I can really stop. xo

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