The solace of your heart
is not always enough
standing on the pier
touching his left hand
when the wind blows, it feels like a ghost
with breath tinged by salt
your grey eyes still sad
down turned in strain
mosaic of worry, we didn’t anticipate
losing the stretch of land, leading to sea
its hypnotic pull, tearing you gradually from me
your face a shroud of former memory
the words we clung onto
destroyed by encroaching incomprehension.
Once, when we were young
lying beneath a fan in hot climate
you turned in profile
I wish I had learned more languages, you said
I smiled and said yes, in Italian, French, Russian
now I would give that day and others
for you to understand one
and from the sea mist rejoin me, as I stand alone.
The sun left a mark, never removed
on my finger where we promised
though you’ve been gone, long before you breathed last
our sorrow was an empty room
with a man sketching patterns on the floor
in lue of all we were before
his name I forget.
18 thoughts on “Alzheimer”
Thank you so much my friend
This… made me remember how we had to place my paternal great grandmother in the care of a licensed professional for those with early onset dementia. She’d gotten to where she saw my cousin Chrissy when looking at me instead of me. I don’t think I was ready for the tears that just started to fall. It’s ironic what we try to forget, but cannot when memories are stirred.
This is a very powerful, soul-stirring write.
This is the ultimate long goodbye.
It wasn’t Alzheimer’s, but another type of Dementia (vascular, most likely) that my father had. I leave it one who could pen this poem to understand how it touches me. Thank you.
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TheFeatheredSleep – a poem of the long goodbye.
love this – sums up the pain
💓 dear Bob 💓
Waaah- tragically sad, making me cry into my morning cuppa here in Australia; my Mum has Dementia, so we are starting on that journey… the long goodbye indeed. Beautifully expressed, thank you
Full of melancholy and beauty xo
Alzheimer’s….It’s the cruelest disease – to its victim and to everyone in its close circle (family, friends). My mom died of it two years ago. It was terrifying and horrible. Thanks for sharing this, Candice. ❤️
Oh wow! I love this so much, you capture it so well. Alzheimers is such a bitch of a disease as I’m learning at the start of the journey.
Your compassion shines through
heartbreakingly beautiul, Candice. ❤
Thank you dear one
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