Why do they have to die?
Early and cruel
She was always carrying kindness in her every step
Why? Why the girl with stars in her eyes?
Who has always struggled
Why her?
I beseach nothing and no-one
It is why I feel we are alone
For what God accepts this pronouncement?
Why is life for some so easy and smooth
While others only know struggle and pain?
Those we cannot save
Die before their time, often in agony
And nothing makes that okay
I say, raging at Gods who don’t listen
Wondering what the point is
Where’s the sense or justice?
Evil perpetuates and survives
And you take her? Like she’s only existed to sacrifice?
The platitudes don’t cut it
This isn’t her time, this isn’t a lesson
The orphaned son will carry
Her soul as I shall remember her humility
Better than most, so much better than most
Who do not die and use their time
Unwisely and with selfishness and squander
And she is good she’s always been good
Her husband cheated on her and left her with HPV
The outcome is terminal and what is left of my heart
Shatters into pieces of one great big cry
For good does not thrive in this world, no it does not
We are all upside-down standing on roof tops
And I want to save her so much but nothing, nothing I do has any power
It is the diminishing light and the curtain drawn and closed
I cannot bear
The cruelty and uncaring
Death and its wretched finality
Are a voice in my head
They say
Words have no meaning girl
Being online is a waste of time
Online friends are not friends they forget quicker than a mosquito
Go out into the fucking air and breathe deep
Remind your limbs you are alive
Grieve the inequity of the world
And how women are marked to suffer
Do something real with the time you have
Remember those who have fallen
For no one else
Ever does
Such is the hideous fickelty of the world
Few keep their word
Least of all cancer
