Stigmata

 

093c3ac60161fdab3e0a048f7e5ccf6cThe day they pricked paint into her back

permanent and violet

she grew a lotus mandala

lending a little stigmata wisdom

to the thin bones of her grow

for she didn’t know that year

whether to follow sharp train tracks and disappear

into the woods not to be discovered

or walk into winter blizzard

feeling her way through to

imposing red bricked hospital

sagging against its frame like

an auburn flame caught in globe

shaken from foothold

placing her wet gloves on chaffing radiator

tell the patient man behind his mahogany desk

littered with prescriptives for disease of the mind

I am not well I am not well I am not well

you must take me from my freedom and tie me up

in a satin bow atop a new gift of hope

somewhere I cannot think or pass

in my mouth the marble and coinage

of my jailer

 

if she had let herself fall then

with his regard whiskering her lament

and plummet like a fire consumed comet

for the first time without control just

the ember of her flaming skirt searing

a series of interrupted tap dances

spanning shortenedย  life

in the direction of diminishing

sticky mouthfuls of sweet jam taken in dark

tap tap tap tap

braille, wittled cane, white and wooden

hers was the fear of generations

her grandmother, her grandfather

laid to rest in sweet meadow of

Mont-Ventoux, beyond lavender fields

where their metallurgic table of elements

could rest from unquenched desire to end

take your medicine

euthanize the unrest

let the sleep of the dead

usher silence in prayer robe

when he died

holding his dry paintbrush

when she died

clutching her wet scripture

when their loss mixed in formula

writing her DNA prophecy

she learned to lace up her unease

absenting breath needing not to breathe

not today doctor

not ever

these houses for the poor of heart

medicated,ย inviscerated, shuffle in

do not come out

 

she left her gloves on the radiator

followed her tracks back through virgin snow

easier when you cannot really see where you go

somehow standing amidst the roar

sea on dry land, oceans in desert flowers

it might take defying your legacy to survive

it might take not wishing to be the next pin to escape

bowled over by shared cross-stitched disease

even the empty

even the weak

 

she got a tattoo of a lotus

on the small of her back

where men had whispered hot and slow

you are slender like a branch

I want to bend you in two as green willow

will not snap

supple in bow, play me never

this girl has forged her symphony war

out of rising in morning, ready to give up

she survived percolating tendency

and the ones who thought her lean

pressing her against shiny coffee tables

unbuckling their murmuring distaste

for respect

thinking her a orfice, a receptacle, alabaster secret

and not a girl capable of swallowing fire

 

they did not believe in signs and wonders

nor warriors who wear no armor

she stands in her diluted ink

she is the beginning, the circular, the ending

of ways we are forced to be

a stain lies on her skin

it feels like an angels imprint

lending courage for the quiet

of soul, who gathers the leftovers

surviving beyond her welt

she is merciful to the meek

as a storm gathering in force, swells against

shore, building momentum

turning the raw belly of sky

monochrome

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46 thoughts on “Stigmata

  1. “they did not believe in signs and wonders
    nor warriors who wear no armor
    she stands in her diluted ink
    she is the beginning, the circular, the ending
    of ways we are forced to be”
    THIS is so beautiful and speaks to me love it thank you:)

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      1. I’ve been reading your posts for quite some time now, but just a little too shy to comment.

        Your creativity in writing beautiful words really inspires me. Please don’t ever stop writing, and do consider me your forever fan. Have a lovely day! ๐Ÿ’•

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      2. Wow what lovely words! Thank you so much Janah. I know about shyness, I am shy too so we’d probably get on very well! I love how we can lift each other up and support each other, please know that’s how I feel also. Thank you dear friend. xo

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  2. This Passage:
    ‘you must take me from my freedom and tie me up
    in a satin bow atop a new gift of hope
    somewhere I cannot think or pass
    in my mouth the marble and coinage
    of my jailer’
    …The only poet that gets me every time.

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    1. *massive scarlet blush* you leave me spellbound with your regard kind Sir. Truthfully it’s like knowing a favorite author personally and them telling you that they love your work, yeah it feels that good because that’s exactly what it is.

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      1. I just got caught in the doorway, my swollen head unable to fit through ๐Ÿ˜‰ Seriously, when we first ‘met’ I was intimidated by you, which is odd as I’m rarely intimidated, I take that as a good sign in a strange way, then I realized we were of the same weft and over night it was as if we knew each other the allocation of our years – you treading the moors whilst I brought up the desert rear, chasing your fox tail. Long I hope to know you, in this world and the one that you are creating with every step.

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      2. I’m about as intimidating as a seagull. Unless it’s a hungry seagull.
        PS finished the third book today. I’m cream-crackered!
        Now I’m counting the days until your new tome arrives. Very exciting. ๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ‘

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  3. The simultaneous raw power and vulnerability of your subjects blows me away. You have such a distinctive voice Candice. I become lost in your imagery and don’t want to be found for a while. Wonderful. I loved it.

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